The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.

I've always believed that our stories define us — not just the highlights that we share on social media, but the quiet moments of doubt, the unexpected detours, and the small victories that often go uncelebrated. This is my attempt to share those moments, to reflect on the path that has led me here, and perhaps to find meaning in the journey itself.

What follows isn't a polished narrative with a clear beginning, middle, and end. It's messy, sometimes contradictory, and perpetually unfinished — much like life itself. But in sharing these fragments of my experience, I hope to connect with others who might see reflections of their own journey in mine.

Chapter 01

Beginnings

I grew up in a city located near China. My earliest memories are of long summer days spent exploring the nature since I live in a remote region of the city. It is also where I learned to appreciate the beauty of simplicity and the power of imagination. I would spend hours wandering the woods, creating elaborate stories in my mind.

My parents were both educators, and our home was filled with books. I would lose myself for hours in stories of far-off places and extraordinary people. Perhaps it was inevitable that I would develop a fascination with storytelling and communication. While other kids dreamed of becoming astronauts or firefighters, I harbored secret ambitions of becoming a writer, capturing moments and emotions in words that could transport others just as I had been transported.

School came easily to me, but social connections were more challenging. I was the quiet kid who preferred the library to the playground, who found more comfort in ideas than in the chaotic energy of my peers. This sense of being slightly out of step with others would follow me into adolescence, both a source of insecurity and a catalyst for developing a rich inner life.

It was during these formative years that I discovered computers — not just as tools for games or homework, but as portals to new worlds of creativity and connection. The first time I wrote a simple program and watched it execute exactly as I had instructed, I felt a thrill of creation that was almost magical. Here was a medium where precision and imagination could coexist, where logical thinking and creative expression weren't at odds but were two sides of the same coin.

Kid Zai

Location

Lashio, Shan State

Period

2003 — 2010

Key Memory

"The first moment when I realized that I am a human being and not a dog."

Chapter 02

The Gifted Child

I spent most of my high school years as a gifted kid, a label that came with both privileges and pressures because of my parents. I never got a chance to play football with my friends because I'm being isolated physically and mentally. After school, I always had to go for another class for Chinese and English. I was the only one who had this life. On the one hand, I was fortunate to have access to resources and opportunities which made me who I am today.

It didn't end there. For my senior high school, I had to go to a special school dedicated for the engineers. The reason was quite funny. I was scared of not being a Civil Engineer if I go through normal route which is completely normal. I chose to attend GTHS which is focused on engineering and by doing that, I will not miss the chance of becoming a Civil Engineer. It started beautifully with me being the top student in the entrance exam which got me into the top class.

I killed everyone's expectations by living like a complete idiot. There's something that i forgot to mention which is about my parents. They are both teachers in the university and the teachers who're teaching in that high school were once their students. For that reason, I was the king and I made a lot of bad things. I bullied some of the poor kids in that school (not physically but I still regret for that). I started smoking and I got all the bad habits that my parents hated.

But it ended well with me meeting good friends and teacher who fixed me at the final year. I was being pressured in the final exam cuz the situation is so bad that I got C in my first semester's test. I was so surprised when i hear that I passed with good marks after the exam. Then here comes the life changing moments of my life.

College Years

Location

University Campus, East Coast

Period

2010 — 2019

Lesson Learned

"Failure isn't a detour from the path; sometimes it is the path, leading you to where you need to be."

Chapter 03

The Calm Before the Storm

I started my University life in Mandalay which is the second biggest city in my country. I got the freedom that I always wanted. The first week was a little lonely but I made a lot of interesting friends after a week. Guess what? I ended up being gamer, smoker and alcoholics because of them. But they were still good people.

It was the happiest moment of my life til this day. I was drunk almost every night and I didn't even study a bit. I went to short trips that I never thought I would go. I made that decision in just 1 minute thanks to the friends that I had. I had my first breakup at that time which is also a story itself but long story short, I was dumb and she's smart so I just ended up crying like a bitch.

The calm is over, the exam was postponed because of COVID and we didn't know what's waiting for us. I came home and believing that we'll all meet again when the COVID is over. (Spoiler Alert: it didn't) I had to stop my bad habits at home because I will get killed if my parents know how I live in Mandalay. I still had connections with my friends from Uni via game around that time.

Career Transition

Location

San Francisco, CA

Period

2019 — 2020

Reflection

"Sometimes the most courageous act is to walk away from what's comfortable to pursue what's meaningful."

Chapter 04

Finding Purpose

I got hit by a storm after storm. First, my girlfriend left because I was a bad boy it took me almost 3 months to recover. The pain from that breakup ended after I met with a new girl. She played an important role for my life. A bigger storm hit at February 1, 2021 when the military coup happened. I didn't know it would be that bad. I was so naive that I thought it would be over in a month or two.

I was lucky to have her because she was the one who kept me sane for the whole year. But I was still a coward and a loser. She was so rich and I was so poor that I couldn't even afford expensive gifts. I was so ashamed of myself that I didn't even want to continue the relationship. I was so scared of losing her that I chose to break up with her. I was so stupid and I regretted it after a year.

I didn't have a dream but I knew I needed to become stronger. I had that fire within me so I started studying Japanese with a plan to study in Japan. I was so focused on studying that I passed the exam within a short period of time. That certificate became useless when I realized that I couldn't afford to study in Japan. I learnt the most important lesson after passing the exam. I can become everything that I want to if I put my heart and effort into it.

I was lost for a while after that. But I ended up working at my dad's student's office working as a drafter. I was still better than 99% of the graduates in my country when it comes to Civil Engineering related stuffs thanks to my dad. I was still a dickhead til that day. I was slacking off and which ended up firing me after a couple of months. But I found the type of person that I want to be.

I want to be the next Steve Jobs. You heard that right. That became my dream and I started to learn programming. I was also late and my parents thought I was crazy. They invested a lot of time and effort into me. I had a bright future within that Civil Engineering career. I have no doubt that I would be a top tier engineer in my country if I continued that path. I was so lucky to have these parents that I didn't get slapped in the face.

After opposing my parents, the real shit happens. It was a time when everything I did was failing. The electricity, the internet, everything was against me. I wasn't good enough to get a job. I failed the job interviews over and over. And for worse, the girl that i mentioned chose someone how's richer and more mature over me. It sounds silly when I look back but at that time, it was a big deal. I was nothing, just an arrogant loser who's filled with failures. I failed at education, I chose something that my parents were against and now I hit what people called the rock bottom.

Startup Life

Location

Boston, MA

Period

2020 — 2022

Key Insight

"Purpose isn't found in grand missions alone, but in the daily practice of aligning your work with your values."

Chapter 05

Viva la vida

I spent my darkest hours in a dark small room, hunched over my 8 years old laptop and grind. Failure after failure, I found another failure that lead me to change my life. I failed at a job interview, and I posted on reddit that I was willing to work on a project for free just to get experience. And thankfully, a guy from Australia messaged me. (While looking back, I always feel like everything happened as if it is god's plan.)

His name is Nick and we're at the same age. He wants to build an AI that can redraw floor plans. As someone who learnt for his entire life drawing floor plans, it was an offer that I couldn't deny even though I had nothing and paid nothing. We worked like crazy, we talked and discuss for hours and hours believing we can build the next Apple. It was 'Archaic' and we're now 21 years old first time startup founders. Another life changing event happened after a month.

From broke and now became a refugee. The civil war is now close to our city. I was hearing explosions, airstrikes almost every night while I was coding that damn website. That was the proudest thing that I did. Later, the battles became so close that I was seeing a helicopter shooting rebals and the rebals shooting back that damn helicopter in broad daylight without telescope. That lead us to move into the city center immediately.

It was a cold night, we didn't bring any blankets. I also had exam from UoPeople that night, and I was also making landing page for my website. Do you know how a refugee camp looks like in my country. It was so crowded, the kids are crying, since it's a hall, it's so noisy and the only time everyone stop making noise is when kaboom. I should be scared and depressed but I wasn't. I've changed and I've grown.

Luckily, since my parents were teachers, one of their student invited us to live in their house with us. Since they're rich, they got plenty of spaces to share. And now I can sleep in peace except from the explosions. We shipped our website when I was still in that house and guess what, we had zero users. The problem was simple, we were late. Our core feature was to generate property descriptions and openai released their GPT stores so why would they pay us to generate the same thing. (We had more interesting features like google map integration but no one really cared.)

It was another failure but unlike my previous ones, I was proud. After a few months living in that house, we made a plan to leave the city because we knew it will get closer again. We took debt and we plan to move to a peaceful city. While planning, another storms hits. Junta made a law that everyone at my age will have to serve the military. But since it won't affect immediately, we took the risk and moved. I started a new life there for some reason, I was listening 'viva la vida' from coldpay on the car and I can never forget that.

I still worked on my startup for a few months and later we both took a break peacefully accepting that we were inexperienced. I got nothing to do except from working on my own projects. I was still making mistakes but these are not stupid mistakes anymore. Tbh I was lost around that time. I didn't know what's waiting for me and I didn't know what to do. I posted stuffs on reddit asking help for my country's situation and met a guy named hamburger_spaceship. That dude turns out to be a girl. And thanks to her, I got a job at 'carching' which is a Malaysian startup but this time, I got paid around 160 USD. Then another chapter begins.

Present Day

Location

New York, NY

Period

2022 — 2024

Philosophy

"The journey is not about finding your one true purpose, but about creating a life that allows you to express your many purposes."

Chapter 06

Present day

Present Day

Location

New York, NY

Period

2015 — Present

Philosophy

"The journey is not about finding your one true purpose, but about creating a life that allows you to express your many purposes."

Epilogue

Continuing the Journey

As I write this, I'm aware that this story is far from complete. There are chapters yet to be written, experiences yet to be had, lessons yet to be learned. That's the beauty of a life story — it's always unfolding, always revealing new possibilities and perspectives.

If there's one thread that runs through my journey so far, it's the search for meaning and connection — in work, in relationships, in the way I engage with the world. This search hasn't always been straightforward, and there have been times when I've felt lost or uncertain. But each step, even the missteps, has brought me closer to understanding what truly matters to me.

I share this story not because it's extraordinary, but because it's human. We all navigate our own paths, make our own choices, face our own challenges. In sharing our stories, we create possibilities for connection and recognition — moments where someone else might see their own experience reflected and feel less alone in their journey.

So this isn't an ending, but a pause — a moment of reflection before the story continues. I'm grateful for the path that has led me here, and curious about where it will lead next. Whatever comes, I hope to approach it with the same openness to growth and change that has guided me so far.

Thank you for walking this part of the journey with me. I hope that in some small way, my story has resonated with yours.